How is it, that I can not figure out how to talk to women? Ugh. I feel a hunger within my rousing to the surface haha. Yo. I just saw a really beautiful woman at La Montanita, and I could tell that she felt about me, how I felt about her, but I didn’t know what to say! We both bought burritos, and then she waited behind me to warm hers up in the microwave. She also bought sushi, or spring rolls ~ I forget which. All I could think about…all I can still think about! Is pressing my face against her body. She had a shirt that was cropped so high, I could see the bottom of her tits . And…I don’t think she was wearing a bra, which if true, is very impressive. She was stacked as fuck and I could tell she was into me. But what am I supposed to say to her? Hindsight is 20/20 ~ I should have told her that I’ll be downtown selling kava tonight. I should have business cards so I can hand them out and tell people about what I do. I should have asked her right then and there to film a YouTube video with me haha. I’m inconsolable! I’m not really sure what to do. I definitely should have asked that girl to hangout, but I am a shy human, so I’m writing about it instead. We could be learning all sorts of stuff about each other right now. And honestly, that’s what I want to be doing…I never know how to bridge the gap. Has any women ever gone up to any man and asked him to hangout? Haha. I’m kidding.
What am I even talking about? My blog is just one missed connection after another haha. AND! The worst part ~ I stated in the previous blog post ~ is that at first, the people who might actually pay to read this blog, are not the people who want to read about me crushing on girls. So, am I breaking the rule of writing for my audience? Hmm. I’m not really sure. When I look at the analytics of my blog, I can see that it’s more men than women who visit my site, but irl there are definitely more women who tell me that they read my blog.
The time Is 09:11 on June 12th and I am writing to you from my house. I should be hanging out with that girl, but instead I’m writing and getting all in my feeling. Nonetheless! I must persevere! I’m working towards something much bigger than meeting someone at a grocery store, and I must find balance. The universe brought that girl and I together…okay I’m over it now. Thanks for listening to me haha.
x. Spark Twain