Perhaps I need to change who I follow on IG, because I’ve been wasting a lot of time playing around on there recently. I wanted to be at the coffee shop at 06:00am today, but I didn’t arrive until like 07:00. This is okay.
More cacophonies in my life! So check it out. Yesterday I participated in a rap cypher [@cipher_eth] and I fucking murdered that shit. Yo. I LOVE to rap, and I’m really good at it. And you know, since I’ve discovered kr8m my mood is so much better, and this has improved my rap flow too. So what’s going to happen?
I try to avoid a career in rap, but it just keeps pulling me back!
Today, I start working at a new job. I’m going to cook food. It’s going to be easy, I believe, although it is going to take a dedication of thought, as most projects do. I wish I was more excited, but I’m just not. Forsure though, I’m going to make this the last job I ever have. I’m not going to quit until I have a decent amount of money stacked up. Yo, yeah, that’s true. I think I’m going to be working 4-5 days a week, but it might be 2-3; I’m not sure. I could end up working one day per week if that’s what it comes down to, but I don’t think I should quit this job until I have…a secondary sustainable source of income. I literally can not believe that I had five digits and I couldn’t successfully open a business! Haha. Maybe I should have been rapping this whole time! Watch me sell like $500 worth of nft’s in July. That would be off the fucking chain-and-a-half. I’m not really sure how I’m going to do it. I have my brand…right. Spark Twain. This brand is kick ass! That much, I know haha. I have a lot of work to do with it though. My problem is that I have no consistency. Which isn’t weird or anything, because I am aware of that, but I do tell myself, in my head, that consistency is key.
So why don’t I have any? On my way here I was thinking about it and I came to the conclusion that it’s because I am always looking very far into the future. A beautiful woman with a purple yoga mat just left MTCR. Want me to tell you how I really feel?
ANYWAY! Haha ~ I’m trying to be more…grown up. I turn fucking twenty-nine tomorrow! June 22nd, 1992! My social security number is 867 53 0942. Go ahead. Steal my face, bitch.
That’s a really strange joke haha. I think someone might actually try and steal my identity haha. That’s not a real social security number. It’s just a song from the 80’s with the answer to life tacked on at the end.
Yeah, word, so, I start work at 11. I have a feeling that in the future I’ll be working at like 4pm though, which I will enjoy. I used to think that working in the morning was the move for me, but after I did that at Proper Food for a year, I decided that working at night is better for me. My mind is too wild in the morning. I can’t lie, recently I haven’t been feeling that good. You know, I moved here to try and work with a place and then decided not to and so I knew I was going to run out of money and that’s been baggin’ on me. I feel it when I wake up. The very moment I wake up…I feel a strong sense of not wanting to be present in my own life, but that’s only been happening for like 2 weeks, so in getting this job, that’s me nipping that feel in the bud.
If I end up kicking ass at this job Imma ask for a raise, obviously, and I’ll write about the whole experience if I do. By the way I am making an extreme effort not to let anyone know where I am working, that way there can be no issues with this blog! Yall remember that time I tried to protect my shit behind a paywall? Not the move. I figured that out on my own.
What was I even talking about? I definitely started rambling and got lost in my own sauce. Believe however, that I was talking about hip-hop nft’s, and I don’t think I mentioned this here ~ only on my ig story ~ but I would like to make 1000 of them. For me, I know this is doable.
Whoa. Talk about a time warp! Haha. The time is now 09:42 and I am writing to you from my house in Nob Hill. I just met a really awesome girl and we got lost in conversation for like 2 hours. It felt like two hours, at least. Her name is Amber Hope, and she won three national awards for archery yesterday. Ain’t that cool?! Like, cool asf haha. Archery is badass.
She just out here traveling around! If the timing was any different, I think I would have asked her if she wanted company, but alas, as I have spoken, I’m starting a new job today. With how good things are looking, it would definitely be the wrong thing to not show up for my first day of work haha. That being said, as it turns out, Amber is a lot more than just an archer. She is involved with content creation as well! And it seems like ~ after that ample amount of conversation ~ we are going to work together! Like I said ~ things are looking good.
I can’t wait for the day I can freely travel again, but unfortunately, that day is not today. This is definitely going to be the last job I ever have. It’s so tempting to keep working fulltime on my art, but I’ve felt on the precipice of compensation for a long time now, and so to think that taking an extra month and working on myself will bring me anything, seems unwise. It’s obvious I’m on the right path, and it sucks that I have to do some stuff I don’t want to do on my where to where I’m going ~ and it sucks that I’ve made hellllla mistakes too. But the universe is bringing to me where I need to be, over and over again. Faith is required.
x. Spark Twain