I’m Juice

It’s refreshing to be refreshed. I’m not sure what I’m doing with this blog right now. There are a lot of things running through my head. This espresso is very…Maybe it’s only because I Was drinking Michael Thomas this morning. Hmm, and that being said, I guess I won’t tell you where I am, but I was here a few days ago.

Yeah, I’m not sure what I’m going to do with this blog. To be honest, I have a desire to get over writing about women haha. I don’t think it makes me any friend, but I know it makes me a lot of enemies. No, of course, there is a tipping point which, if I hit, I will embrace full, but I am pretty damn far from the tipping point. Meaning, that, I think there is an audience for my kind of writing, but it’s not my current audience, and so maybe I should adapt my writing for my current audience. I’m not really sure what I’m supposed to be doing here on this planet, and I’ve been awaiting some sort of direction for some time, but it makes me think that I am the boss, and I came down here knowing that it was possible I end up in this position. I nor any of my advisors mut have been worried, because here I am. Perhaps I just cannot interoperate the communications. That’s possible too, but it seems less likely. At least I would been given a golden disk I could bring to someone smarter than I, if that was what it came down to. I’m going to assume there is nothing to worry about.

But what’s with the broken shoulder then? I bet that wasn’t part of the plan haha. YO! It’s so fucking hard for me to do my job ~ mentally! Because I know what I’m doing to myself. I absolutely should not be trashing my body for this low of a wage…how many months will I ramble! We’ve been here before. We’ve all been here before. I’m not sure why I came downtown. I don’t think it was the move, now that I’m here. Obviously I’ll get my writing finished and I will publish it to the blog, which is…really my only goal for right now, which…probably isn’t so good. I have other goals, I just haven’t gotten on my good foot to achieving them. I’d like to think that I don’t know what to do in proceeding, but the fact is I’m probably just lazy. I’ve already identified a couple of locations.

I’m just sitting here thinking. I’m not thinking about the girl anymore. It got too weird haha. Idk if we will ever hangout. Eventually I will find a girl to hangout with.

I definitely should have gone home. I don’t feel very good. I have things I’m scared to talk about. Yo ~ haha. I’ve got a lot of things I’m scared to talk about.

But seriously. Only 3 people came to my website today. It’s been going down, and idk why. But you see, I’m wondering if it’s the content. I can’t exactly change who I am, but I would like to change the image I project, because I don’t feel like how I represent myself online is very much how I represent myself in real life. IIRL I’m pretty cool, but I might be kind of a meta-tool haha. Can you believe it’s fucking Friday?

x. Spark Twain