The time is 06:24 and I am writing to you from Michael Thomas Coffee Roasters. On this day in 1945, our shitty white government killed 140,000 Japanese folks when we dropped the first in-war atomic bomb upon the city of Hiroshima. It was catastrophic. One building stands, and it is a memorial.
I just sucked all the crema off my espresso haha.theres really no other way.
I now work as far from my house as is physically possible, while still being within the same city. I travel 90 minutes to work, and today the last bus comes at 18:20. I have to leave for work in two hours. In fact, this morning when I woke up ~ and even last night, I decided that I should probably not smoke any weed this morning, since it’s my first shift. But then, 2 hours after I woke up, I gave in and smoked weed. And right now? My back hurts. I was thinking about that too. Right before I left I was like…is this the right thing to do? And then as I was walking here I realized that I was being hard on my already delicate body, for no reason.
I’m yawning, and I’m not satisfied. BUT it’s all about attitude. I decided that before I smoked. I decided that, if I wanted to smoke but kept the attitude that it might ruin my day, that it would ruin my day. Ugh. It still might have haha. Forreal. I let my mind get the best of me. I should have left my house without smoking weed, but you know what I did? I sat there and thought about it for 10 minutes before I did it. Of course I’m going to smoke weed if I sit there and think about it haha. I bet you are the same way. I feel like I let myself down a little bit. I’m yawning a lot haha. I think I’m all in my head. But, so, anyway. The next 7 days are going to be intense. I do training for the next 7 days, and then I take a test ~ presumably a menu and drink menu test. I have barely looked at the menu, but I did read the first 5 or 6 pages of the employee handbook. In fact, I was thinking that I’d come here, inhale my espresso, publish a quickie, and then go back home to study the menu. I do want to succeed at this job. I’m not exactly announcing it loud and proud yet haha ~ I was talking about it a lot before I got the job, but now that I’ve landed the whale, I want to see if I can get it to shore before I go bragging. I’ve got 7 days and a menu test ahead of me. The only time I’ve done anything similar to this was at Olive Garden. If it’s anything like Olive Garden, I won’t be doing much waiting of tables at first. Like, they might not even let me talk to the customers today. That would be nice, actually haha. I enjoy a slow entry into things. Hmm…I’m thinking back on it now. I remember the OG training a little bit…making the salads…my friend Devyn worked there. He lived with me for a lot of the time he worked there. That was a pretty good year haha. We just played video games and he worked at OG and I did my G thang. These days…how would I feel about that job now. Servers are a different breed. But me? I’m a fucking alien. I’m all breeds, yo. I’m even a literal dog, and a literal cat. I’m a turtle and I’m a fox, a parrot and a finch ~ a dodo ~ a samurai in a dojo. Spark Twain is all things, and I, Chris, am part.
Okay…the bus comes in 10 minutes. And then I’m going to head home, and study the menu. Actually, it’s not sucha bad thing that I smoked this monring. I mean, we are talking about 4 hours before work, and 2 hours after I woke up && drinking espresso is keeping it consistent for me. There have been days where I haven’t drank caffine, and I really do get a headache.
This my trainer will be cool today? One of the head of the service staff personally recruited/recommended me, and so I have a bit of optimism because of that.
Yo. I might not make this next bus either haha. I Gotta post this and go.
x. Spark Twain